a random thought...

You are alone in life...

...but then there are memories
and people-hopping in and out

to make sure there are rarely times when you feel totally desolate...

Cheers to God's lovely social structure! :P

1-2-3-4-5...

Considering the girl who tagged me is someone with whom I can associate myself sooo well(Nithya), this is gonna sound so much like what she wrote!
:P

Ten Things You Wish You Could Say To People Right Now (names withheld) :

1) You don't know how much you mean to me! You're the one person who means the most to me in this world. I'd do anything for you.Yeah, it IS tough to believe when I don't even do the little things you ask me to! :P Sometimes I think, maybe I'm NOT the kind of person you wanted. Sometimes I could see pride in your eyes when you look at me. I wish I KNEW what you think of me. No matter who goes away from my life, I can manage. But without you, I'd be nothing! I've been cruel, horrible, lazy, mean, stubborn and more to you. But I still LOVE you! :)

2) I miss you so much. I cried the other day when you were so sweet when we chatted! :) I can't wait for you to come back and dry my hair and bug me and yell and scream at me when you are here! :D Love you!

3) You're the apple of my eye. I might not be too over-expressive with you alone! I don't know why but I DO take it for granted that you KNOW how important you are to me. I want you to have everything I never did. i want to gift the world to you. i wish I could be a better person so you can look up to me. I wish I were more sensible like you! You are like my kid. :P and yes, I WILL BOSS OVER YOU! :P

4) I wish I'd met you before, been a part of your life before so that there might have been a chance. Sometimes I wish... oh crap! I hate you for waking into my life so late! But I hope there is hope!

5) You are the meanest creature I know. I hate you for treating me the way you did and I wish I could hurt you back too! But I know I wouldn't.

6) I'm so glad I know you! :) You make me smile at life and trust that there still is some goodness left! - dedicated to a few ppl! :) not just one!

7) I believe in miracles now. I believe in fairy tale endings because of what happened to you! :) You have no clue how much I prayed and wished everything will be alright! I'm GLAD everything is so beautiful now! :) I'm gonna miss you terrible! i can't even imagine. Yes, I can't! and I KNOW I'll miss you more than you would! :( and I HATE you for going to stay away from me! I wish you had more time so we could spend it together. you're so busy. The time I used to get, someone else does!The someone deserves it totally! I can't even hate that someone! damn!!! Cos that someone's just-so-nice! :( no messages anymore. no late night talks. I miss it all! I don't say it cos I dont want to sound like a spoilt selfish brat! But it's true! I miss all the times we used to have. I want such times again!!!! :( Because, after a few months, life will become irrevocable!

8) I wish you never grew up, kiddo! You used to trust life so much! you used to laugh more. Now.. you've changed so much. of course, you can better face the world now. But well.. sometimes I wish you STILL did trust in birthdays and doing crazier things, being a little more open-armed! I wish you still were the girl you used to be! But I guess, it's all for the better. Love you, kiddo!

9) I hate change! And you knew that. I told you NOTHING will change. You got scared and you ran off. Never to return in the same way. You are so different now. so distant. It hurts that you did not value me enough and you just tossed everything off and went away. Was I just a timepass for you? I wish you'd stop imagining things and be normal now. I'm matured in my head now. It's high time you get some maturity up there too!

10) I wish i could tell you how fake, irresponsible, hollow and annoying you are! Go get a life! And make sure this time round you don't cheat and take people for granted! URGH! you disgust me!

Nine Things About Yourself
1) I crave for people at times and I crave solitude at times. People tend to think I am a social butterfly. I am not exactly one (Quoted exactly from Nithya's blog. It's absolutely applicable to me!)

2) I am constantly plagued by the fear of seclusion! I'm pretty insecure in that way!

3) I am greedy for new experiences, new friends, new books, new material possessions etc! :D

4) I am extreeeeeeeemely fussy about food! :P

5) I can be silent, too! :P

6) I think and analyse things too much. I tell myself I'll stop. But i never do.

7) I love being busy and filling every second of existence with activities. It makes me feel GOOOOD about life! :)

8) I love it when people reach out to me the way i do to them.

9) I expect too much. I'm consciously trying to curtail it.

Eight Ways To Win Your Heart

1) Have a great conversation with me! I'll be floored!

2) Do something JUST for me- cook, write a letter, think of me and message, call me saying 'i felt like talking to you', something, anything! :) the fact that i mean something to you makes my day! :)

3) Chocolates! :D ferrero rocher, dairy milk, crackle especially! :D

4) Ask me to entertain you when you are bored(straight out of Nithya's :P)

5) take me on a long walk or insist I spend time with you! :)

6) smile at me wholeheartedly! :)

7) Be candid to me. Be yourself. I loathe artificiality. (Nithya's again!:P)

8) Let's both do something crazy- write shitty poems, war dance in the terrace, invent a new language, etc! :P

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot

1) Why do i confuse myself so much?

2) Am i doing right?

3) Was I destined to do this ?

4) Why do I have trouble in accepting things ?

5) Why do I get emotionally attached ? Why do I entertain false hopes ?

6) Are people taking me for granted? Do they genuinely care for me? Am i being a little-too-nice to everyone?

7) Am I asking for too much out of life?

Six Things You Wish You Never Did

1) Some words, meant well, but that caused someone to forget the lovely friendship we had shared till then. I've tried a million times to patch it up. But somehow, thigs have changed and it still hurts that I lost one of the most true friends I had and treasured! I wish things would change back to normal... but i know it might not happen!

2) I trusted people. And they were untrustworthy!

3) I wish I had never stopped my swimming and keyboard classes! I wish I had learnt dance professionally

4)I wish I never grew up! :(

5) I wish people would understand that I don't OVER-REACT, but that's just MY WAY of reacting!

6) I wish I could rewrite a few chapters of my life... undo a lot of things, change a few and make myself more happy!

Five Turn-Off’s

1) Artificiality
2) Irresponsible people taking responsibilities
3) Unfairness
4) Inequality
5) Meanness

Four Turn-On’s

1) A nice start to the day... like a slight drizzle, some friend's message/call, chilly breeze, purple dawns, nice dreams, birthday mornings when amma wakes me up saying 'Happy birthday'! :) , Vishu mornings when I close my eye, stumble across and look at gold! :D

2) Simple and sweet and beautiful li'l nothings! :)

3) smiles :)

4) great conversations! :)

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die

Too many things! :) globe-trot, publish a book, be called a good human being to name just three!

Two Smileys that Describe You

:O

One Confession

I do feel lonely at times, and feel unimportant, useless and a huge failure in a few particular ways!

I tag- whoever wants to take it up! :P

A TIME

Sometimes you KNOW you need to blog.. to write something and fill in those really low moments when you seem to be so unsure of everything you do/talk/think! Weirdly, from the morning, many little incidents have been piling up-insignificant in isolation- but together making me feel 'oh-god-WHAT-am-I-doing-in-life?'!!!

So many choices made that are making me confused.
So many choices ebing made that are making me unsure of the next step I take!
So many choices ahead!

Sometimes I wish I KNEW what i'm supposed to do! People accuse you so often-so easily! Some in jest, some so seriously and some-just 'cos they did not have anything better to talk about! And sometimes, although it's not supposed to hurt you NO-MATTER-WHAT, it DOES hurt and your stupid shrinking mind thinks of it all day and ruins your mindframe at the end of the day.

I BADLY feel like taking a few days off from everything and EVERYONE and travel! I can't wait for my next course to begin in 1.5 yrs...

I'm not depressed! I am just feeling that sinking, totally empty, kinda dull aching feeling inside. No one can help. I need to help myself. And when this paralytic benumbing phase seizes you, it's kind of difficult to gather yourself and start your normal work!

Sometimes I wish i knew what life was all about...

My dear dear D-O,

It is extremely unfair if I begin this letter with a 'hope this finds you in the best of spirits'! I have shamelessly and unceremoniously ditched you all along. A pathetic excuse of 'not feeling like blogging' shall never quite compensate for this prolonged silence.

So I seek no apology nor do I write any more reasons!

Before you freak out thinking I have once and forever decided to dump you, here's the truth- NO bloggie! NEVER shall that be even a possibility!

I am back! And I've decided to blog more frequently. Of course, you KNOW how I feel about filler posts and stuff. I shall not resort to them at the maximum. But in case, in case, I feel like making some meaningless noise, I shall put in some filler posts like that pathetic 'Orkut fotune cookie' post that I had put up previous to this.

I have not been in any 'non-writing' mode. In fact, I've started a new blog! Now now.. don't you be threatened. You share space with these 5 sister bloggie friends and you may well be assured that you still are the first, my very best and most priceless bloggie of them all. Now, Stop grinning! :P

Going back to that 'new blog', it's actually a joint venture by 3 of us. Oh...the usual suspects- Arvind and Anoodha. It is a movie blog. Yes, ONE MORE of them that floats in blogsville. The only difference being- nothing at all! :D The three of us update it at our convenience. We don't write amazing reviews nor do we write
anything of great quality. But it is OURS, we're constantly learning and improving(I hope!).

So in case you want to go sneak-a-peek at your new bloggie buddy, here you go, D-O....
http://rollingcamera.blogspot.com
and the Blog's called 'Montages..'

Did you know I'm going to seriously take up writing and journalism as a career? Seems strange, eh, after 5 whole years of architecture?! Well, the FIVE years itself aren't over yet! In one way, it seems to have stretched a hell of a lotlonger than for the rest and in another way it seems to have just flown past. Just an year and 2 months left now in architecture.

And then... I shall flutter my wings in the new horizon. I trust in God to keep the wind steady and the flight-not too difficult! And most of all- I trust in myself to be able to continue my passion in a more serious manner!

Somebody had told me,randomly in some conversation, D-O, that sportsmen are really lucky to be taking up seriously what others look at as a hobby! That's so true. 
I never quite have forgotten those 
words although it skips me as to WHO told me that! Apart from the immense influential changes that have washed over me, I've also realised that, at the bottom of my heart, I remain and always shall remain- a writer. I cannot be separated from words. Whether it's good writing or bad is for others to decide. But writing cures me of EVERYTHING! :)

I'm glad at this delayed clarity of thought. Although many feel I've 'WASTED' 5 years, there have been nothing more fruitful than these! :)

Well, I've bored you enough. I promise to come back later and refresh you with something better and more sensible.

Till then,
Cheers from
The Dreamy Dryad :)

TODAY"S FORTUNE-on ORKUT

Stop searching forever, happiness is just next to you!

:)

such a nice way to begin the day! :)

Aaja Nachle!!! :)

CAN'T WAITTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D

It's DANCE for god's sake!!! And MADHURIIIIIIIII!!!
WOWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! :D

PHOTO:rediff

HOW?

Photographs have these uncanny abilities to bring out a rush of grief into your eyes and a sting of memory!

Ah! How you wish certain things had never happened in life!

But then.. you learn! :)

MY LITTLE MARCH GIRL

MY LITTLE MARCH GIRL
`Paul Laurence Dunbar (1872-1906)

COME to the pane, draw the curtain apart,
There she is passing, the girl of my heart;
See where she walks like a queen in the street,
Weather-defying, calm, placid and sweet.
Tripping along with impetuous grace,
Joy of her life beaming out of her face,
Tresses all truant-like, curl upon curl,
Wind-blown and rosy, my little March girl.

Hint of the violet's delicate bloom,
Hint of the rose's pervading perfume!
How can the wind help from kissing her face,—
Wrapping her round in his stormy embrace?
But still serenely she laughs at his rout,
She is the victor who wins in the bout.
So may life's passions about her soul swirl,
Leaving it placid,—my little March girl.

What self-possession looks out of her eyes!
What are the wild winds, and what are the skies,
Frowning and glooming when, brimming with life,
Cometh the little maid ripe for the strife?
Ah! Wind, and bah! Wind, what might have you now?
What can you do with that innocent brow?
Blow, Wind, and grow, Wind, and eddy and swirl,
But bring to me, Wind,— my little March girl.

( The above poem appeared in Dunbar's 1899 Lyrics of the Hearthside. It was discovered in Poem of the Week)

@3:11

http://311pm.smugmug.com/gallery/3746961#216626088

:)

3:11 pm

Chennai's blogsville is cooking up it's own delightful agenda!
An innovative coming-together of sorts is being organised for 3 November 2007 at 3:11 pm! Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, put the pause for a moment and click what's in front of you! Chennai-in its myriad moods and faces and resplendent colours will be captured through these pictures.
It is not a charity move! Neither it is a contest! It's just a thought,a moment to share with fellow residents of the city where you breathe,sleep,cry,laugh,jump!

One moment, we shall all be united in cause and Chennai shall fondly be remembered and transfixed in the camera screens!

For more information, read here.